Disclosure of a heart

“Therefore do not pronounce judgment before the time, before the Lord comes, who will bring to light the things now hidden in darkness and will disclose the purposes of the heart. Then each one will receive commendation from God.”

1 Corinthians 4:5 (RSV)


An author once wrote a book about the first wave of Mexican immigrants to Chicago in 1917. The stories of those immigrants who first settled in Chicago were collected from various sources. One of those sources was a young Mexican woman who kept a hand written diary documenting her family’s history, faith in God, and their effort to leave the turmoil of the Mexican revolution at the time. Her name was Elidia Barroso and she was my late husband’s aunt. 

As I read excerpts from Elidia’s diary in the book, I started to piece together the traumatic events that affected their youngest brother more than anyone else. The Spanish flu pandemic at the time, was taking millions of lives globally, and it took the lives of Elidia’s mother and father. She became the responsible oldest sister of four orphaned children in Mexico. Elidia and her two sisters migrated to America in search of work to support themselves and their little brother, Peter, who was only six years old at the time. 

Elidia and her sisters didn’t encounter Customs and Border patrol in those days, since the organization wasn’t created until 1924. Mexicans only needed to pass a literacy test and pay the eight dollar head tax, to enter the United States.

With both parents dead, the older sisters dropped Peter off at the home of a distant relative in Texas, as the three girls migrated to Chicago to search for work. Peter’s life went from a happy, carefree childhood, living with his family on a ranch in Mexico, to becoming a scared and confused orphan, living in a new country, learning a new language with relatives he hardly knew.  

He was later reunited with his older sisters in Chicago, who raised him to adulthood. He eventually outlived his sisters, married and had a family of his own. He was not an easy person for his own three sons to understand, since he never talked about his childhood of loss and separation. His sons only knew their father as a harsh, abrasive and complex man. His middle son was my late husband, Stephen. I never met Peter, his father, since he died before we married.

Only God knows what pain people have hidden in the dark corners of their life. The scripture today warns us not to pronounce judgement before the time, that only God can bring to light the things hidden in the darkness. 

It was Elidia Barroso’s diary, which brought out what was previously unknown about Peter’s traumatic childhood, which shed much light on his complex personality as a father.

Today, whenever I am tempted to judge somebody, I think of Peter, the scared, lonely child who lost both his parents and was separated from his sisters at the age of six, and how a disrupted childhood may affect a life.

If we could see every person in the light of their personal struggles or through the eyes of an all knowing God, we would probably never judge anyone again. God brings to light the things hidden in the darkness, sometimes disclosing what is really in a person’s heart. Having a brief glimpse of the pain and loneliness in someone’s life, gives us the eyes of mercy to better understand who that person really is. 

Lord, enlighten our minds and give us a heart of mercy toward those who we tend to misjudge today. Give us the light of understanding so we may see people through your eyes. Amen

Sustained in old age

“Even to your old age and gray hairs

I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”

Isaiah 46:4 (NIV)

This is one of the few scriptures written for senior citizens. There is another one in Psalms that refers to the average human life span as a “handbreath”, which is an ancient Hebrew measurement of about 3 inches. Not only is it referred to in brief inches, but it says that every human life is like a fleeting breath to God. We may differentiate between long lives, short lives, and babies who are just beginning to live their lives, but to God, all physical life is a fleeting breath, since each real life is the soul who will live forever. 

Last weekend, I celebrated a very old life and a very young life, two days in a row. I sang Happy birthday to a 92 year old friend on one day and the next day, I sang it to my 1 year old great, great niece. The paper plates and napkins at the one year old’s party, cleverly read, “First trip around the sun.” 

Whether we’ve had one trip around the sun or ninety two, every day of life is a gift from God. The average life span in the US went up last year, and is now 79, but since some people still live to their nineties, it’s good to learn what researchers found about those who are living longer. 

Time magazine once published an article about a research study, concluding that those who regularly attend any type of religious service have decreased stress and live longer than average life spans.

The reason for this wasn’t the effect of prayer alone, but prayer plus the regular support of a faith community. 

The value of congregating with like minded people of faith, is what a Harvard professor of epidemiology, found in doing this study. Having a network of social support as well as a deep sense of purpose in life, accounted for longevity benefits among those he studied. Scripture suggested this 2,000 years ago, encouraging believers to live as one unified supportive community of faith, so Christianity actually taught this long before Harvard discovered it.

Jesus left us the Holy Spirit after He ascended to heaven. The book of Acts described the lifestyle that believers in the early Spirit filled church were living. They were described as devoted to the apostles’ teaching, to regular fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. (Acts 2:42)

Their church life was a community of mutual support, and they all had a deep purpose in living for Jesus, believing He was returning again one day.

Living a long life as we know it, is still a mere fleeting breath to God. Senior living has to be about more than healthy eating, exercise, efforts in looking younger and saving money. God told us through Isaiah, that even in our old age, when our hair is gray, He will sustain us. His sustenance extends beyond finding the right wrinkle creams, nutritional tips or hair dyes. 

As we age, although we may encounter increased health, financial, or relationship problems in our senior years, we have been given a beautiful promise that God will sustain us, rescue us and carry us throughout those years. He does it as we depend solely on Him as our source, and plug ourselves into a community of like minded believers, where we share spiritual and emotional support. This is what benefits our recoveries from illness and alleviates stress. 

God is good, and living life with the knowledge of His goodness, we find that He does rescue us from our afflictions and carry us when we need to be carried. Refocusing our values on a life being well lived, instead of dwelling on our losses, keeps us making those trips around the sun year after year. 

I can still remember sitting on my own grandmother’s lap as a child, and though I saw the wrinkles on her face and her coarse, gray hair, what I looked for most was her smile, her joyful laugh and the sparkle in her eyes that made me feel like I was a delight in her life. The way that grandchildren, great nieces or great nephews see us is one more gift of God’s sustenance through our gray haired years. 

Lord, thank you for sustaining, rescuing and carrying us through the many phases of aging, and help us to stay strong in a community of faith and Christ centered purpose during all our trips around the sun. Amen